As most of you already know Willy and I broke up a little over a month ago. This has made me think alot about my life and where I have been, where i'm going and where I want to end up. Lets start with where I have been. The past 2 1/2 years with Willy were so fun! He helped me grow up and discover who I was! All I wanted in life was to marry Willy and have baby Germaricans. I was SO sure that this is what I wanted. I was positive that him and I could make it work and last forever. Then the past month of our relationship I realized that I would be settling. Yes I could have married Willy and this would have been... ok. I would have been settling though. I just wasnt happy anymore and even though he wouldnt admit it I dont think he was either. So I decided to call it off. Things with us ended REALLY bitter and awful. The hardest part was losing my best friend. but in the long run i think it was the right thing!
Monday, November 30, 2009
He Showed me so much about life and another culture. We road tripped, went to Europe, I can now understand German, he taught me how powerful love and trust really are. :] But now as I close this chapter of my life I look back and im grateful for knowing him and getting to share part of our lives together. Im gonna take what I learned from our relationship and use it to make my next one better! He will always have a place in my heart and I wish him the best in life and maybe one day he can forgive me!
Where I am at: Right now I am honestly so happy! Im still working at Costco, im planning to move out with some of my friends at the beginning of the year. I am back to having The Mad Adventures of Jade and Face! Im hanging out with friends and going to clubs and enjoying being my age! Im in a new relationship and im taking what I learned and using it in this relationship! I dont have to see him every night of the week. He has boys night every Friday and we have lives outside of each other. He is so fun to be with with and keeps me laughing all the time! He is really sweet and caring. I dunno where me and the new guy will end up but im enjoying trying to find out! I still dont know what I want to be when I grow up but im only 19 and I have time to decide! Im going to take a class and get my CNA and maybe take a class so I can be a phlebotomist and go from there. I may love it and I may hate it... I have learned that im young and getting married is the last thing on my mind! I want to be young and enjoy life before I settle down!
Its just funny how life turns out. If you would have told me Oct. 1st that I would be here I would have called BS. I didnt see any of this coming, never thought Willy and I would break up never thought I would date the hot kid from work, never thought I would get to do all of the things im doing now! I guess this is just part of the adventure we call life! <3
Sunday, November 29, 2009
Last night Face and I went on a mad adventure! We drove to Kaysville about an hour drive and about $15.00 in gas to see a $3.00 movie! We were afraid my car was going to be shot and roll down the hill, and in the movie we were accosted by a homeless man that asked us for a ride home and chatted with us through the whole move! Besides all of that I must say this was the best movie I have seen in a long time! I absolutely loved it! :] You have to be warned this is the opposite of what you might think. Its not a romantic comedy type of movie. Face has seen it 3 or 4 times in theaters. Its not what you would expect but its a great show and makes you think about love! Just in case you decide to go to Kaysville to see this movie just know there are lots of seats on Tuesday... The girl working the register when we bought our ticket felt she needed to share that tid bit of info so I'm being a doll and passing it on! :]